where?

there is nothing behind the shadows
that is what I found on this unending road.

there is no colour but black,
painted by those who refuse to see.
there is no sound but silence,
played by those who refuse to hear

still, my nerves seize to fail.
every ounce of hurt pierces through my heart
every step I take only amplifies the pain
when will it ever stop?

the only thing real were my tears,
they fell when I realize this isn't home,
What should I do? Where should I go?
I cried the questions aloud.

Then a voice appeared, one I did not expect
a whisper broke through the shadows and won the silence
it spoke an answer that no one else hears
I heard two words, "follow me"

Here, I must chose an obvious choice
to follow the light, or remain in shadows.
I do not have to think twice, the light is my answer
For I do not belong in the dark,
the pain told me so.

I was prepared to fight, but the victory was won.
I reached out my arms, and a hand held mine
just like that, I got out of there
I never want to enter again,
I never want to see darkness again.
the pain as my reminder.

secretly

Did you know...?

I secretly love you.

the darkness

when I'm here, the darkness calls out to me.
its cool appearance seems horribly seductive.
I imagine the eternal rest that I yearn for,
one I cannot find under the sun.

the Mysteries behind the shadows,
the stories about power and greatness,
all luring me in to that which I cannot see.
I find myself walking towards a path unforeseen.

I reached out to nothingness,
and found something I should never have
the great mystery unfolded,
and it all became clear to me.

The darkness is nothing but a mere cover,
to hide its hideous face,
to mercilessly haul the souls of passerby
to share its endless pain.

Dear travelers, heed the sign, 'Beware'
Do not be fooled by its wretched appearance
This is where wounds never heal
and rest is never found.

crash

All my years spent running away from my nightmare... It has finally caught up to me.


I cant breathe.

Missness

It was too random today.. =)

went out to watch Yogi Bear. Strongly NOT RECOMMENDED. =O

BUT! =) it was awesome. today was not bout d movie, but bout time spent with precious friends and sisters. I was so tired I could barely walk. but when I talk to them and laugh with them, the moments were so priceless I would do it again on any other tiring day.

I met someone unexpected today.. (actually I hoped tht I would bump in to him) haha! Daniel and friends.. =D I didnt say hi.. but I waved tho.. =) Gosh, I missed him.. He's a special friend, one that even if a hundred years were to pass without us ever keeping in touch, I would still remember him. hmm.. Maybe it is his GOD-GIVEN talent in drawing... O_O

He is incredibly gifted that it would break my heart to see it jz fade away. He has not been drawing for a long time.. for some reason I felt sad. i want to see his drawings!! i wanna collect them and stare at them everyday. (OMG, i sound like a stalker.. XD)

Energy

Stop stealing energy from me. I really don't have enough to spare.

Stop pouring salt on me. Im already shattering..

and you're still expecting sugar from me?

Im all out.