It was for a greeting.

I did it! I posted something on facebook right after I said I wouldn't.. But it's okay. I forgive myself since I posted it for a Raya greeting. :)

Everyone seems to be in celebrating mood now.. Laughing, smiling, joking around... And I'm here, all by myself.. -_-

No, I'm not bitter. I just wish that I was born with lots of fun things to say.. ya know? I caught some of those celebration spirit and even I am celebrating with them.. In my own way.


:) Selamat Hari Raya! These celebration times are good to have.. Holiday.. ;P

People around me

I realized that if you'd like to be cared for, you have to really fight for it. There are moments (namely now) that I feel utterly exhausted from trying just to stay within the sights of friends and family. And if you are not quick enough, their eyes will turn elsewhere and they won't be able to see you anymore.

I think this is tiring. I think I should just move on with life without these people. I think I can find better things to do than to always try to be with people.

So yeah. I'm not even going to try talking to them. at all. If I find them rude, I'm just gonna not tell them and just walk away. If they come running after me for help, I shall only oblige for a worthy cause (highly unlikely at any point of time).

That is all. No, I'm not available. Don't look for me. I'm busy. Farewell.

*Shuts door*

:DDD

Studies has proven that when you are sad and depressed, you should just force smiles. Then you will feel better.

Smile! Smile Smile! :'DD hahaha!

I really wanted to post on facebook that I'm sad today. I almost did. I was a single click away. I didn't. My pride wouldn't let me. I promised myself I will not post a single word on facebook for the rest of this year and if I go back on this, it would feel as though I failed myself in yet another simple thing. I can't add one more to the already overflowing list of failures.

Besides, no one on facebook cares anyway. no point.


I really feel sad and depressed today. No, I am not telling why (not that anyone will read this) because it will be a disaster if I do.
Smile! Smile Smile!

:'D

One of those days when you seem to hate everything

I hate.

I hate you.
I hate corn
I hate fish
I hate vege
I hate tables
I hate cars
I hate bicycles
I hate the wind
I hate the sun
I hate the clouds
I hate papers
I hate books
I hate music
I hate land
I hate water
I hate birds
I hate dogs
I hate cats
I hate songs
I hate air
I hate chatting
I hate mirrors
I hate working
I hate typing
I hate talking to people
I hate listening
I hate dreams
I hate reality
I hate waking up
I hate going to sleep
I hate opening my eyes
I hate closing my eyes
I hate showers
I hate brushing my teeth
I hate putting on clothes
I hate eating
I hate answering calls
I hate checking my phone
I hate receiving messages
I hate delivering them
I hate adam
I hate eve
I hate chopsticks
I hate spoon
I hate forks
I hate bottles
I hate water
I hate everything.
I hate smiling
I hate crying
I hate laughing
I hate frowning
I hate waiting
I hate now
I hate later
I hate searching
I hate finding
I hate it here
I hate it there
I hate my name
I hate your name
I hate advice
I hate lectures
I hate silence.


Not really.
But I hate it really.