crazy

I'm going crazy. I can't work properly, can't sleep in peace, can't think straight, can't act calm, I am going crazy!

Strange tightness

There is a strange tightness in my chest that I cannot understand. I secretly look at her profile sometimes. She's perfect and I won't understand if anyone didn't love her. If I was a guy, I would love her. Yet, they broke up. They did because of distance. They must have been in love. They are perfect together. I don't understand. They may have broken up. But they must still share a love. They still love each other, don't they? How can you love a person one day and then stop the next?

yes. yes, i am.

I have a confession to make. Yes. Yes, I am depressed. Sue me. Why am I blogging on a blog where no one reads? Because everyone on facebook is f******  judgemental. that's why

indecisive

I am one indecisive bastard when it comes to this one thing.

mess

I'm a mess! My mind is in a mess. My heart is in a mess. My actions are mess! Everything's a mess!

gotta resist

gotta resist from posting anything on facebook. no one reads blogs anymore. so if you've accidentally stumbled your way here, don't expose me. shh.

never ever.

this is why i never want to get myself involved. because if im ever sad or depressed, i don't have anyone. so i must always keep myself happy. because if im not, i would have no one to turn to, no matter how much i want it. I have God and Jesus, bu everyone knows he cant physically b here. Even as my tears cant stop rolling down now, I've got no one. I need to die young. God, let me die young. thanks.