Crazy

I am going crazy.

I'm doing a really bad thing, aren't I? It's been a long time, but I've not gotten over the trauma. If it happens again, it would be too dramatic. too much!!

Guess it wont, but I'm too afraid.

Then there's this really expensive trip. Should I go? Should I not? Should I take it? Should I not? Should I???????? God, if it's from you, give me a solid, confirming answer. Please??? One so solid, I can't say NO.

I didn't earn it. but that's what grace is. But the story of Cain and Abel. wait... =_= wait, what? how about that story of not giving God what you have not earned? It's like giving God free stuff!

I am going crazy.

I'm already crazy, aren't I?

Nevermind.